The weather is so nice today. The bluest sky, the eighty degree temperature… It reminds me of you. Your Instagram is full of poses outside, in a bikini, at the beach or by the pool. You sought it out above anything else. The attention you got was all you ever talked about. This obsession with attention was what drove you and in some way, it took away your mystery.

But in the end, looking at pictures of you makes me realize that I didn’t know you anymore. I’m not sure what you became in the last years. I know it wasn’t who I was friends with. I’m curious and afraid of what I found while searching for you online. So many nude photos, your long brown hair covering your chest. You looked so vulnerable, so desperate, like you finally let your addiction to attention take over. I guess that’s what it was. Vanity mixed with low self worth and confidence took over who you were and the friend I knew, the one who fought so hard against who she was, was gone.

And then you were gone too.